III. Être entre d'une lampe et d'une
suspension
A
wine glass shuddering in still sparks, its crystal connecting nervous and
ardent to the light of the lamps. She stretched out her small hands, so damp,
took it delicately as if it were electric in its fragility; intensely slow she
let it fall out the window shattering in herself the resistance of her life;
she heard its shards singing rapidly alongside the distant cement. Frightened
she listened for an instant to the room where Irene’s guests were gathered:
nobody had heard and the cheerful murmuring kept going in a single whirl; no
maid was turning up. […]Destroying the glass had nothing to do with her past,
with the time that was running out, it was an instant above her own life—she
was strangely noticing what she was thinking as in one of those pale and silly
memories of things that don’t exist. Above all because she was separated from
herself by two delicate glasses of drink. But she already knew this: that it
was always too late in order to not enter the room.
-Benjamin Moser’s and Magdalena Edwards’s 2018 translation of Clarice
Lispector’s O Lustre (1946)
He was rising through the mist, blown on a gust of love, straining at a white
light that he would bathe in. He half rose. –Henry Green’s Blindness (1926)
Destined to breathe, forever, atoms of specialized vials air-dried and
spray-coated for renditions
Of
microvaccine thermo-controlled with overt notices that there is no risk of drawing up micro glass
into the syringes remaindered in lock-tight Eleusis, where Veritas patterns the bottom of
wells and jobs well-purposed by subjects overloaded and aspiring in their
adapted states of marrow mechanostats—Appraising
evidence by its custodians of the New College (1636), of which there are no
representations of its founder, endowed by an initial bequest of 400 books,
which then followed human chattels, offering cues against like-suffering paume
D'une main
decoctions of some aunt's far end of the plot's what once had been a hothouse, its plates broken, straggling last
summer's dog rosehips
Against
disheartening outcomes and probabilistic assumptions spurred on by single-arm
trials—Silenced,
as if to suggest the mutability of forearmed viral envelopes and cross-species
jumps among the hypersanitized and vulnerable to recreate in the mire of an
undefended afternoon; meanwhile, deeper
darkness closed around imago of what the broken pane realized, the last
letter signed Yrs. Years? by Henry
Green’s John Haye (1926)—Contemplating the screen's error
Message; likewise, the many truths purported by John Ray, Jr. (1952), whose
client, Humbert received both the rest cure for maximal venous return and
the transdermal and sublingual routes of
nitroglycerin—Among the notes of the incarcerated, rereading the manuscript of
Lolita, among back issues of the prison infirmary’s trade journals that a
nitrate bioavailability assay is concluded by the manufacturer of explosives
that same year, he would later recall the pharmacokinetics on sulfhydryl groups
of unclenching vascular smooth muscle; far from her and from death by acute
coronary thrombosis reported in feigned error—
As
an unnamed consultant from his cell, HH became to that Grand Chute senator once
campaigned for by Eisenhower (3 October 1952), who finds a fellow sympathizer
as HH recounted the black oxide finish called full blued on an eight-capacity
firearm waist-banded up to Grimm Road, and there were few to lament the loss of
Clare Quilty, Red infiltrator and known to the Bureau for blue books—Somehow
the existence of him is received before the snowmelt of Gray Star, Alaska,
graue Star or blindspot, by the now hospitalized Dolly; now, Schiller or the
squinter, relieved of a procoagulant stillborn girl on Christmas day
(1952)—From protracted bleeding elucidated later as disseminated intravascular
coagulopathy (DIC) of clotting cascades and hypothermic shock secondary to
volume loss—But for the dearth of packed cells, infusions of crystalloid salts,
administration of heated human plasma, whose purity is established by
chromatography of the Rayleigh-Philpot-Cook sixth decimal place of the
refractive index (1952)—Such rigorous applications of experimental treatment
were taken, if to redeem by amassing publication from a hospital in the
hinterlands, as it was recorded in the convalescent notes, renditions
Of
sublingual wafers containing 125 mg of sodium heparin were administered
postpartum, despite Mrs. Schiller suffering a small cerebral infarct without
residual—From Die Erblindende (1907),
now, her hunched figure it almost hurt to
see, taken diner-side before flight to the brush-footed graylings, Oeneis larva foraging on the moss and
wormwood of nunataks as refugees just as the Bering land bridge mammoths, where
she vanishes from sight from the war-deafened and liquor-defeated Dick to the
lower forty-eight, or else left to bear the matrimonial trials
Of
Delius in Jacksonville to Danville, to touch down in Grez-sur-Loing with Jelka;
wont to compete with another tired barmaid—Meanwhile, tissue-level realities of
prolonged anticoagulation further stimulate osteoclasts and suppress
osteoblasts to unknit such soft-textured bone density into the developing
dowager’s hump displayed here according to the mechanostat
Theory
(1987)—Endecha en sangre, which sang in silver and copper until the silver ions
were exhausted into Diana’s Tree
(1962), the same currently showing some promise in nanodoses toward development
of an antimicrobicide which prolongs vase life with deposition in the
petals—Misprisioned in the fourth collection known only by the prologue Paz
composed for relatively unknown Pizarnik (1962), to XXX. […] la endecha de las alas en la lluvia / the dirge of wings in the rain—Earthbound
toward the rosehips
Of Rosa canina two winters chilled to propagate their always oddly paired
chromosomes that characterize the coral haws Pliny prescribed for
rabies—Magritte’s rose in the face, Untitled
(1965) as it was conceived for the cover of
Xe Siècle Aux sources de
l’Imaginaire potentially perused until each of the thirty-eight short poems
Pizarnik arose from the fresh glance from the grave as documents to Léon
Ostrov, who would later open a lay practice in psychoanalysis in Buenos Aires,
attest and further from the Parisian Surrealist bande de paumés
From La Domaine of Arnheim (1962) in
Brussels with the Heysel Plateau Atomium (1958) fresh from Expo 58, and in
modern times a blank copyrighted for disputed panorama rights—The surface
simulates a silvered ultraviolet absorption peak and visible chase into highly
reflective white to the visible eye—Le Gouffre Argenté (1926) posited for
timing of the gap until perceived force of the serve responds transiently from
within the dedans of the jeu de paume
Feet
staked as prise de terre; and on the lawn court perspiring salts for the stray
butterfly, and memory of that splendid day in piqued cotton with titillation of
the crocodile’s René Lacoste, one of the les Quatre Mousquetaires whose wins
totaled six Davis Cups (1927-32); and because it is green, the most widely
perceived color due to the combined reception of rods and cones onto the
outgrowth of neural tissue, where 29 subtypes of retinal amacrines (Masland,
2018) buffer the bipolar and ganglion inputs processing the error
Inhibited
by GABA at the isolated amacrine terminal when first seen the future that
incapably beckoned yet is unprocessed in entirety—Renaissance Florentines
examined what is essentially same structure as the first seductive apple, the
calyx-concealed rosehips
Tipped
with stamens, sawfly wasp larva and thrips—HH reckoned with the Future’s
cancellation of many things, while not being among them a reduced sentence and
cooperation with authorities strengthened by the abductee submitting an
affidavit; notwithstanding a situation not pertinent to the facts of the Sally
Horner kidnapping (1948)—Framing their first meeting again in a leaky motel
room, a profile’s halation happening to them, and in the desire to see into the extinguished and dusty light bulb more than a light bulb—Overhead, with his sunlit
deprived face contemplating as a last resort for floaters the hazardous
surgical instillation of vitreous humor for normal saline after spot detachment
due to tennis ball trauma—Still seeking in the lineaments of their faces the
Quattrocento translucent underpainting that is the flaked white replacement for
oils—HH reflected back to his captivity, where he would not take it into his
mind to fatally ingest the prison hobbyist set rich in chromes and leads—In the
era of Roy Cohn prosecuting the Rosenbergs (1953), and his associate Senator
McCarthy already jaundiced and thwarting rumors by marrying his secretary, in
between John Ray exploiting this alumnae relation from their days at Horace
Mann, the widely publicized secret speech (25 February 1956) affirming the
consequences of Stalinist propaganda, and mass paranoia in fact followed by the
rendition,
Prefaced
by the casually cruel Milgram experiments (1962), of Frederick Barghoorn
(October 1963), returned in a swap, with the good sense to travel abroad without
a camera—Followed by whispers in the rayons
congelés the consequent words thaw poet Bella Akhmadulina exclaimed to
ubiquitous reading by thieves in law (1957), It’s grief, not pride that holds / my head so very straight (lines 11-12)—He would go by Horace, after
the Roman satirist undergoing his quietus under the then burgeoning Augustan
civil service (30 B.C.E.) when the Olympia Press copy is declared obscene in
England (1956), while not in its country of origin—In America, they buried this
connection to the past, bearing the mechanostat
Of
environmentally regulated quantities, she, as the Schiller exile, had she the
local remodeling at the pelvic outlet, as one reads a fossil, the experience of
the loss recorded as parturition pits among trials
Of that winter (1952), of a lifetime’s exposure to fluorescent light credited
for those hollowed lengths of bone coinciding with the population's increasing
rates of macular degeneration—From these shreds of mortal life recollected and
cast from the suburbs to break into Charles Burchfield's October Outside (1963), when their expectant news is soonest interrupted that November by
the broadcast just before the assassin's trial
Foreclosing
all the events of The Idle Warriors (February
1962), and facets leading up to it, when Oswald is fatally shot by a nightclub
owner (24 November 1963)—Whatever the present view, H refuses to speak of his
work thereafter; impervious to suggestion regarding the Parkland coroner, Earl
Rose, who is shoved aside for the custody of the body—If he did indeed succumb
to the publicized head wound; indeed, her eyes would say to H, son corps s’était paumé—
What
lesser catastrophes would follow their married life, in a running conversation
over the decades among news clippings and over the breakfast table, of one who
could outperform all marksmen in firing three rounds in eleven seconds, and
what became of the 35th president’s remnants of brain, which would never be
catalogued, unlike Marian Diamond’s possession of Einstein’s frontal lobe in
celloidin (1984)—The Berkley scientist whose groundwork for neuroplasticity
would be an inspiration to the mature Dolores—Fissionable matters of the body
as hormonal synaptic pruning in the grey matter during pregnancy as a basis for
attachment, with structural differences in the sexes and the low-stimulus
environments with Parmenides's equivalence of being and thought in the speech
act, she decided, after impediments, on teaching master's level anatomy in
night school, since the mechanostat
Guided
adaptational responses, and continue in the continuum beneath as she follows
her theory of how the astronaut’s heart and skeleton atrophies in low gravity;
and suffers silently, denied the nurse’s white uniform competing with family
requirements for less than the submission of moral turpitude in stepping
backward into the error
Of
youth—After discovery of their father’s copies of the The Cluster and The Empyrean Path (1923)—the most precious of
objects, with its quotidian translation into her anatomized life, The Clyster and the Contrarian Path
scribed in the margins disapproving of the heroin-fueled rock era—Such an
episode was not revisited; but for the renditions
Of
gossamer winged butterflies, the Lycaenidae,
the coppers; their subfamilies of ant-attended blues and hairstreaks in the
university specimen drawers; left uninjured in the case, all of which are found
prefer red-spectrum flowers and capitalizing on the lush nectar before rosehips
Of September’s equilux—Struck in the blue locus of the sapphires of Virgo;
better known as Astraea, and with her sisters, Dike and Nemesis, withdrawing
from the fifth age—As they would later come to learn of death by acute
radiation sickness in nine days; speculation of a possible GI focus at the
splenic flexure, in a setup separated by a star’s core depletion of beryllium
molded into a hemisphere set above a plutonium core in a seat of tungsten that
Slotin teased with a flat-head screwdriver (21 May 1946), where his
collaborator, Graves keeled over after the incident skiing nineteen years
thereafter—Stranded with contributions only acknowledged at their loss; of the
heart’s size and near heft, the spleen seemed to her grossly descriptive of the
false fruit; hypanthium as receptacle of the achenes, which, in the fifth week
of gestation, flexions up into the left upper quadrant, rosehip-like
She
many times chalked in cross-section with its compartmented white pulp and red
sinuses into which they drain—In so many demonstrations of equanimity, she
winces at the temporarily exposed nerve root, as HH had not absconded with her,
drawn with the same ferocity long ago, the trials
Of
not explaining—Creation conceived by Mary Shelley after a miscarriage (1818)
with the insect’s iteration and economy of structure superimposed by the
hexagonal cells of its eyes—Rhodopsin photoreceptors lining the insect
retinula; where, beneath brain processing, akin to the spinal reflexes in the
comatosed, just where the light processes by the ocelli Goldsmith and Ruck
(1958) described in cockroaches, bearing testimony as she of the same maligned
and shocking demonstration of maternal care—With care of her prize, the
faience-bejeweled mail around their dead as it seemed to Egyptians with
Nile-drawn nets, and the frantic search of Isis for the fourteen pieces of her
mate upon which to confer immortality; the misunderstood flesh-eating
sarcophagus, the drab chrysalis except for the South Asian Common crow
butterfly (Euploea core), with a
silver, iridescent pupae encountered once in the grey underleaves of
oleander—Followed studies with growth hormone (GH) obtained through cadaveric
pituitary glands with safer renditions
Of
Genentech's synthetic methionyl GH recombinant (1985), as if they were
finishing one phase and starting another, the imperatives of form for Swiftian
ages of an age without being old, and demonstrated conservation of muscle mass,
sur mes paumes—
HH,
whose eyes are closed, conjuring the rarities of beryllium silicate in
emeralds, and in metallic form as a neutron reflector containing the new
elements inconsequent of errors
Still
emerging from underneath the Soviet building (1956) in Dubna—Likewise endued
with vital warmth, the tensile strength with loading, collagen renewal and
increased resilience with Davis’s refinement of the osseous mechanostat—
What
made their love matter is enduring beyond an aleatory contract, just one step
from chaos given neural hardware and declining efficiency, the silicon
processor limits imprinting ossified beliefs awaiting quantum cubits and the
liberating blockchain, a setpoint mechanostat—
She
hesitates, but reads, the white butterfly fluttering in the shadowy corridors, getting lost at the end of the darkness (1946)—Output
that can neither be understood nor understated in isolation, the Pieris
butterfly larvae tolerant to thriving on mustard glucoside, yet the competing
invasive garlic mustard’s mimicry proves lethal to most species—The son studies
perceptrons combined in a multiple learning network in this way he regards
parental sins mistaken for being solved and released, war sie gelöst und
aufgelöst—Delphinidin spliced into a white rose, the Blue Rose Голубая роза
Movement (1906-8) that preceded Der Blaue Reiter (1911-14) reprised in Chagall,
and likewise this line summation in which the preserve of rosehips
Degrades
the tonifying antioxidants—As is too the shattering of ceramic ware is subject,
silver joinery and staples in the cracks exhaling perhaps the fallen Evernyl
Veramoss of the lost Coty chypre (1917), and ladder of associations of Yorke’s
journal (1926) that expending memory of the first book that greater study
identifies as monoterpene ketones of the garden the trigger convulsants—The
ladder, and terminating mem out of which fire and earth came closed for nine
months and then opened in Messidor—Living beyond the defining error
Of
idiom expressed in genome-wide frameshifts to confer her Neanderthal’s
protection on the arm of the twelfth chromosome against coronaviruses (Zeberg &
Pääbo, 2021), and this precept sends up a trial
Balloon
from the scene on the davenport, which is regained on a long ago walk
unwittingly espied between the venetian blinds, and not at all retiring in AD
2020—Together, against the current fashion to renovate and destroy by which
décades became weeks, in place riding the tumbrel from Saint-Lazare to the
guillotine André Chénier’s dedication to the painter Louis David, Le Jeu de paume (1791)—
Detectors
respond as shown in instant immobility and swallowing one’s own heart,
consciously away from the phone pinging remoter renditions
Of
morality—Breathing everything now known, and to be known besides the metrics of
known shapes of other renditions, the matrix biofeedback and mechanostat’s
compensations
By
which tendons adapt and the trials to ascertain lives beyond given names of HH
and Dolores—Sacred luxuries that bend down the roses Harold Budd sets out of
reach (2005), then the rosehips
Signal
that reproduction has occurred, the back and forth of jeu de paume primer and
trail of biological
Error
elucidated by Karlson and Lüscher (1959) of pheromone, I carry and that
which stimulates—
