Monday, May 3, 2010

Infernal Terrarium, the Monitoring Equipment Was Hidden in the Furniture







                                                              Cloches by Andy Paiko
4.

She thinks she is hurt, assuming rebirth would happen. From the outside, leaves
Tie up the carbon, and the pre-blast remnants heap the crater sides as if everything
Were an excuse for feeding. One plant, say, Herb Paris, pushing through seems a girl
Again. Today has the appearance of a bust, with the bell's rimless approach no


Longer a miracle. Another sunny day last summer has only one full-time interpreter. Everything,
All your friends, are peers in oiled glazing. They have recently found their way to new shores
And outlaws have been transformed by their houses and associated studios.  But with no
Movement of the sea to smooth out the brain, as our country has been overwhelmed


By every possible difficulty, one looks to one's soul to be struck by coincidence. New shores
They are to us, the voyagers starting out. Facing a cartooned wall surrounded by grass or
A few trees, if only there were an image of you I could worship. A display of teeth overwhelmed
By our courteous ways. With everything I have done, even yet, the short jagged waves of sleep



Convey me where I hoped to reach, to the cloche violets only absences create. The grass
Dies off, and from there, we must walk. Of many doomed projects, answers harvest the tenderest
Of leaves so that it is possible, from the confines where she is crouching, fast asleep. All ardency's
Spent. Droughts of bitter tea are taken. As you fall asleep, my chair rears from climbing the  moss rick.  






11 comments:

Σφιγξ said...

One of the few things I can look back, and not find unfortunate.

This afternoon, I had a dream of ascending a staircase filled with an ant colony tending the pupa lozenges.

If I can remember, here was the inspiration, though the settings staged for Architectural Digest are generally unlivable:

A garden in hell's red interiors, if the links out of sync.

One of scrub green and used swab interiors:

http://www.architecturaldigest.com/architecture/archive/baldwin_article_012000


http://www.thecitizensoffashion.com/culture/design/diana-vreelands-apartment-the-garden-from-hell/

http://www.baltimorefishbowl.com/stories/pigtown-design-billy-baldwin-and-adam-lewis/#more-4100

http://www.arthermitage.org/Henri-Matisse/Red-Room.html

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HP3wsNdANhM&list=PL3_L7_pLdRXlYy3nsG6nPaMX24EtyJ20C

Σφιγξ said...

Weakly, I turned the page of last week's The Week, and I read the obituary of Paul Auster.

It relates a formative experience as the author is standing next to a fellow camper, who was struck dead by lightning. Paul Auster personal memory of this from the age of fourteen, suggested to him the arbitrary nature of living.

Sunday, I had a screaming match with my brother when he said to his two-year-old son that he did not love him, and that he liked his daughter better because she was like him. He is terrible person, and the boy started crying, if not from the meaning, but the emotional import of what was said. They had just come back from a walk, and he was crying and hungry for dinner. Who knew that waiting until 7:45 pm to eat is difficult for a small child?


Disorganized attachments derive from witnessing the good and traumatic in a person. Looking into the experiment of this family in reverse glass; as I am usually just a spectator in the kitchen, makes me want to shatter it. The bad characters who raised us are reiterated in another generation.


When I go over there, it triggers extremely painful memories of our upbringing; of being trapped in an impossible situation that I conveniently forget.

There is no cure; just sequestering. The wound finds closure again.

I am reading Oracle Night today. I will, of course, drill my test questions in the latter part of the day.

https://awp.diaart.org/poetry/01_02/auster-poem.html

Σφιγξ said...

I do not want to give up on them for a few volatile displays. That would be wrong.

Σφιγξ said...

I will read this, this Saturday. I have a bilingual edition I started last week. It is prescriptive.

https://books.google.com/books?id=-FRrKRexGjkC&printsec=frontcover&dq=luzzatto+path+of+the+just&hl=en&newbks=1&newbks_redir=0&source=gb_mobile_search&sa=X&ved=2ahUKEwjF2ImApbCHAxVSFFkFHcImCF4Q6AF6BAgNEAM#v=onepage&q=luzzatto%20path%20of%20the%20just&f=false

Σφιγξ said...

The exhaustion of last Saturday precluded reading The Way of the Just cover to cover. I will try again, this Saturday.


To be read, sometime.

https://www.google.com/books/edition/The_Private_Lives_of_Trees/LJVuEAAAQBAJ?hl=en&gbpv=1&dq=THE+PRIVATE+LIVES+OF+TREES+Alejandro+Zambra&printsec=frontcover

Σφιγξ said...

Finishing Paul Auster. Luzzatto, too.

This Saturday:

https://www.artscroll.com/Books/9780899066011.html

Σφιγξ said...

https://books.google.com/books?id=gU_iEAAAQBAJ&pg=PT5384&dq=judaism+spiritual+excision+childlessness&hl=en&newbks=1&newbks_redir=0&source=gb_mobile_search&sa=X&ved=2ahUKEwjy79yEkIqJAxVsFlkFHa0zB0QQ6AF6BAgMEAM#v=onepage&q=judaism%20spiritual%20excision%20childlessness&f=false

Σφιγξ said...

https://news.artnet.com/art-world/van-gogh-poplars-sunset-painting-location-2549923?amp=1

Σφιγξ said...

I am stalling to finish the book on Shabbat because then there will be no excuses. One of the areas of improvement in 5785 is complete adherence to the prohibitions. I turned on my coffee maker inadvertently this morning, and nearly became sick on the bilious blend. For coffee to do this to me is very unusual.

Letting go of the dregs in my character is the aim.

I fell asleep this morning, and I had a revolting dream of a child robot with a tapered platinum skeletal armature under the seamless skin. I looked into the bones where the marrow should be, and it was hydraulic liquid. I sat the child robot up, and then I opened a sterile package which contained excrement, and wiped all over the humanoid. The mark of genius in man-made robots still bears the impress of human filth.

I saw my niece this afternoon, and I told her that the package from JCrew came a week ago; and that I had no designs on her affection, but that she needed more autumn appropriate clothes. She countered with her schoolmates were short shorts, so I needn't worry about her. She is going to be a sensual dog (!) led around on a halter for Halloween. She showed me the costume from Amazon.

My brother was drinking all weekend for Oktoberfest and watching UFC fights on the big screen in the living room.

Σφιγξ said...

There is always the temptation to regress, but I can only fail forward.

Σφιγξ said...

https://www.chabad.org/library/article_cdo/aid/518805/jewish/Am-I-Cursed-Because-I-Dont-have-Children.htm