'Besides (fors) them (aus), no-one else knew (ne le sot riens nee)'.
Uptick By John Ashbery
We were sitting there, and
I made a joke about how
it doesn’t dovetail: time,
one minute running out
faster than the one in front
it catches up to.
That way, I said,
there can be no waste.
Waste is virtually eliminated.
To come back for a few hours to
the present subject, a painting,
looking like it was seen,
half turning around, slightly apprehensive,
but it has to pay attention
to what’s up ahead: a vision.
Therefore poetry dissolves in
brilliant moisture and reads us
to us.
A faint notion. Too many words,
but precious.
the present subject, a painting,
looking like it was seen,
half turning around, slightly apprehensive,
but it has to pay attention
to what’s up ahead: a vision.
Therefore poetry dissolves in
brilliant moisture and reads us
to us.
A faint notion. Too many words,
but precious.
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Yes, for the inextricable future.
I do not make or keep secrets for the sake of making or keeping them. By that measure, I divulge what I do because I envision the worser consequences of keeping secrets. No secret societies.
No, my hair turns maroon in the sun.
Yes, my hair is this length, now. I will find some photo of it. As they were then, I have an oral allergy. In March, April in the Southeastern United States birch pollen initiates a cross-reactivity with apples, particularly Granny Smith. A lunch pairing, for me.
A little swelling, for that beestung look, but it is transient. No reason at all to change behavior. Restricting the agent of birch-apple syndrome increases hypersensitivity as it has been demonstrated in peanut allergies in children.
https://www.futuremedicine.com/doi/10.2217/imt-2017-0040
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC5193471/
https://drive.google.com/file/d/1B--7WzEgJ_Cx0yNz9oUaJRznTFshZCqa/view?usp=sharing
https://youtu.be/mdlyEC2wcQQ
https://youtube.com/watch?v=APzqIwo4MNM
https://youtu.be/fqlrL7zLNak
A new moon, and a new chance to demonstrate resilience...to myself.* I have learned to live more with the absence of things. Many things then happen only under optimal conditions.
There is a large basement but I must contend with the flooring, which consists of friable asbestos tiles. The only way forward is to cover it with new flooring.
https://www.bobvila.com/articles/asbestos-floor-tiles/
I am not worried about the ongoing issues here. I already had the gutters cleaned and the deck (to be stained for winter) in process on the first day of closing.
https://www.theatlantic.com/family/archive/2020/01/negativity-can-ruin-relationships/604597/
I retired early on Friday because I felt like I was getting a cold. I had a dream about a spring-fed creek with tides that were strong enough during certain periods of the day that you could surf them. I was avoiding an encounter with a grizzly bear and her cub, but they were swimming deftly next to me. I positioned on a piece of driftwood and road it naked back and forth with the tides.
Rode*
I remember that a scene akin to the log ride appeared in the film I saw at the cinema that night, 1917.
I do not think of myself as a sickly person, but I have had several episodes this year that only bedrest, nasal spray and green tea has shifted.
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC6100025/
Yes, this is probably it. The pollen season is early with the warm weather. My face, mouth, ears and nose have been on fire, with intense itching without eruptions. I eat what I want, without regard to the weather, until I am troubled to look up things. The attitude that any health impairments should get in the way prevailed in my upbringing. I marvel at the restrictive diets and the immense compensations in some, so that their sensitivities assume a greater part of their identity. How annoying.
https://books.google.com/books?id=G0pbSTfDWP8C&ppis=_c&lpg=PA84&dq=birch%20pollen%20allergy%20itching%20oral%20mucosa&pg=PA84#v=onepage&q=birch%20pollen%20allergy%20itching%20oral%20mucosa&f=false
I was a bit afraid, since I helped a nurse with a patient, and I asked her why she work a face mask.
She had an outbreak of trigeminal herpes zoster (!)...the stress of her errant high schooler, the death of her mother, and the search for a job as a nurse practitioner as the contributing stressors.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kqwPR0da0FI
I saw Susan today, and she was doing well working in satellite clinics without supervision besides a monthly visit by the company. She diagnosed a STEMI and expedited a spider bites yesterday evening.
The ACLS test was full of gotcha questions that the cardiologist consulting on my unit had to stay to review in the laminated test book, like if the capnography is persistently low with an ET tube placed with CPR compressions it means that compressions are ineffective or, more likely, it was inserted in the esophagus...I passed. Whatever. The EMTs volunteer to teach us.
https://accessemergencymedicine.mhmedical.com/content.aspx?bookid=683§ionid=45343649
I think I will ultimately like being left to my devices in a clinic. I stay in shape now, though, stumping it on the floor.
I like the 22° solar halo.
http://www.atoptics.co.uk/halo/circular.htm
Yes, my review of the series comes a few years late, but I do remember a mention of the project because it followed Hogarth's A Rake's Progress (1735). My presumed father's mother had a book of Hogarth plates that I turned to habitually, which she studied before leaving Mary Baldwin in 1936 to marry a Richmond dentist. They were both alcoholics, and emptied the house one evening when he was at thg he country club.
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/All_In_The_Best_Possible_Taste_with_Grayson_Perry
http://parkandoak.com/farrow-ball-studio-green/
https://dailyitalianwords.com/italian-word-indietreggiare-to-move-backwards/
Regarder en arrière.
https://the-artifice.com/distorted-class-john-fowles-the-collector/
https://www.newyorker.com/magazine/2021/01/04/the-italian-novelist-who-envisioned-a-world-without-humanity/amp
https://www.ahajournals.org/doi/full/10.1161/STROKEAHA.109.562017
Terrible day with the shingles tracking down the dermatomes of both arms. I was thinking this was self-limiting, but then I read this. Omega-3 fatty acid and EPA supplementation can reduce vasculopathy resulting from the transient inflammation.
https://www.news-medical.net/health/Shingles-and-Stress.aspx
https://oleavicin.com/
"Notably, VZV DNA can be detected transiently in the saliva of severely stressed adults116 and children117 in the absence of specific symptoms, indicating subclinical reactivation of the virus. Nevertheless, testing of saliva is remarkably specific because VZV DNA is rarely detected in asymptomatic human volunteers aged <60 years40,102,118. The presence of VZV DNA does not necessarily equate to the presence of infectious virus. During zoster, a single infected cell can contain thousands of copies of VZV DNA and that DNA can persist long after infectious VZV has been cleared."
https://www.nature.com/articles/nrdp201516
I am not convinced that I had shingles, now. The outbreak was an unconscious shock of what I came to accept, anyways.
https://drive.google.com/file/d/1MNfSvwzBLZsIixITIT1_R1aOjvuKzyoV/view?usp=drivesdk
Regardless of the outcome, one must accept it.
I will make this text a project, in time:
https://books.google.com/books?id=w9cGEAAAQBAJ&printsec=frontcover&dq=Dissipatio+H.G.+Morselli&hl=en&newbks=1&newbks_redir=0&source=gb_mobile_search&sa=X&ved=2ahUKEwj0hIGCwKH6AhXOEVkFHR6tC-sQ6AF6BAgJEAM#v=onepage&q=Dissipatio%20H.G.%20Morselli&f=false
https://www.nyrb.com/products/dissipatio-h-g?variant=32752351281289
https://www.cell.com/current-biology/fulltext/S0960-9822(22)01111-3
"At the end of the day, high-demand cognitive work resulted in higher glutamate concentration and glutamate/glutamine diffusion in a cognitive control brain region (lateral prefrontal cortex [lPFC]), relative to low-demand cognitive work and to a reference brain region (primary visual cortex [V1])."
I thought the premise of Star Trek: The Next Generation could use work, but the types were sound. I related to both Data and Counselor Troi.
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=nn5h2NZZeaI
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=APsFQqS2n-o
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=LVqUVsD0CE8
The episode in August 2022 is already forgotten.
I am still reading with the Etteilla deck.
https://www.newyorker.com/science/elements/the-fossil-flowers-that-rewrote-the-history-of-life
That is the meaning of L'eclisse (1962), or Moravia's empty canvas or Conjugal Love's frozen typewriter ignited by jealousy. There is no story. Despite one's pining and build up to the moment of connection, life is mostly space between these frozen cinematic moments. I love you very much, but I would not be able to feel this subliminity with you parked in front of my face asking if I am tired after working twelve hours, or correcting my French, or noting that I have not achieved as much as you have at the comparable age.
I stayed awake last night watching Alien 3 (1992). This was a poor choice, and I slept poorly after 0300. I was being masochistic because it took entirely too long to make those master budgets. I felt badly about myself, and hypercaffeinated, hurt myself with visual stimuli. The processes and subroutines are gradually assimilated in my brain.
https://youtu.be/6-jlbVTC1JA
https://youtu.be/lTFPRPu7shc
https://collider.com/alien-3-resurrection-david-fincher-deserve-another-look/
People who have lived alone for sometime are crystallized in their preferences and routines. This would be a big problem for both of us, the compromise in work and leisure domains. I am a generous person, and I like to spoil the ones I love; if, in a small way, to avoid the separate budgets and calculation. I am willing to get out of the house to earn a living, and leave things to be done as one sees fit.
I never had the expectation, at any time in my life, I would be supported by someone. While one might have something to say about my book clutter and black cats, I enjoy doing housework and listening to a podcast. Maintenance and daily duties are a part of life.
Growth with another person is challenging but needed.
I had a dream about my maternal grandmother, my mother, who walked with me up the hill pushing her wheelchair. I was picking up a little girl from the gymnasium, which was a pool, for some reason. Everyone went ahead, to wait for me at home, as I walking up Avenham.
*was walking
Exercise 90 goes here.
https://books.google.com/books?id=Jax_EAAAQBAJ&pg=PT524&dq=Too+Much+of+Life+%22that+almost+intangible+substance%22&hl=en&newbks=1&newbks_redir=0&source=gb_mobile_search&sa=X&ved=2ahUKEwjwoZTY87_-AhWZElkFHfGdCb4Q6AF6BAgLEAM#v=onepage&q=Too%20Much%20of%20Life%20%22that%20almost%20intangible%20substance%22&f=false
https://www.baikalnature.com/tours/112
It is fascinating to me, to see little girls with dolls.
I understood; when an older relative gave me a doll, who looked like the donor, of course, I should graciously receive the gift. The expanded animal collection in plastic, fur, felt, et cetera allowed an occasional human girl, but my childhood play did not involve nurturing babies.
If I remember correctly, I became irate when I went to the hospital for my brother's birth, and I was given a baby of my own. I wanted to leave immediately, and leave the infant there, and go home with my mother to carry on as usual. Consequently, I was not invited into infant care. My younger sibling and I became game-board adversaries, later.
My first experience of small children was Siena; and I enjoyed the experience, while it healed my small child issues for being improbable that I should be her caregiver, and that we would have mutual understanding. With my current niece and nephew, their mother hovers; but they run away from her, on occasion, to see what I am doing.
Yes, new moon energy in Taurus to finish Exercise 90 and gain focus on these core issues.
https://soundcloud.com/poe-official/spanish-doll?si=7e3efbbdd57540a5a73e7f6792143134&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing
Thank you, for reminding me.
https://1drv.ms/i/s!AsA4BY25Ql_1mx1h6W8Y91QaAAL7
At the library, I found this to read.
https://books.google.com/books?id=k-OgEAAAQBAJ&printsec=frontcover&dq=Ice+amy+brady&hl=en&newbks=1&newbks_redir=0&source=gb_mobile_search&sa=X&ved=2ahUKEwjBkeuikp6AAxUgjYkEHXTlC28Q6AF6BAgEEAM#v=onepage&q=Ice%20amy%20brady&f=false
https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/abs/pii/S0747563223002145?via%3Dihub
https://youtu.be/G91p9fv2De8
Exercise 90. Thank you, for reminding me.
https://1drv.ms/i/s!AsA4BY25Ql_1mx1h6W8Y91QaAAL7
https://books.google.com/books?id=5YVLC35h3B8C&pg=PA194&dq=letter+mem+open&hl=en&newbks=1&newbks_redir=0&source=gb_mobile_search&sa=X&ved=2ahUKEwivv6eO9ciAAxVWF1kFHSkoA8M4FBDoAXoECAsQAw#v=onepage&q=letter%20mem%20open&f=false
It is clear to me; I will have to come over here the days I am not working to get her out to school.
https://soundtracki.com/shows/the-lost-flowers-of-alice-hart-season-1-soundtrack
https://soundcloud.com/germanariganello/teardrop-massive-attack?si=eaa2249ea0ce4da0b7b333b63d1f912f&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing
Exercise 91 will go here.
My thoughts on The Lost Fowers of Alice Hart (2023): I like Sigourney Weaver in most things, but the botanicals could not save the exhausting train of battered and forsaken women. I echo Anne Coulter, "do we have to be the battered women's shelter of the world? All these hard cases."
Australian television is so melodramatic. Everything now has to tick boxes of stereotypes. I viewed Acorn TV's A Place to Call Home (2013) about an Australian nurse and a Jewish convert coming back from World War II, but the issues crammed into each episode wore on me after four episodes.
https://youtu.be/OvJAmztmeV0?si=4ve72n3zU3rSWJAd
https://youtu.be/IcHOQCjqH98?si=1qvU1vgocvCJgM2-
I went to my manager's retirement party with a cake in tow, and the obligatory card and gift card from the bistro. She was absent and preferential, yet forced into retirement and divorce after twenty-five years concurrently.
What can be learned here is that things are very different from how they seem.
One kindness she did for every employee with a close bereavement was plant a peace lily with pothos. I still have mine. I reflected on what a generous person she is.
Found today. This novel won the 1986 National Book Award. To read.
I was going to send this to my niece, another serialized short story.
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Red_Pony
https://vetgirlontherun.com/how-to-perform-an-equine-emergency-tracheostomy-in-the-field-vetgirl-veterinary-continuing-education-blog/
This, was the book:
https://www.penguinrandomhouse.com/books/41537/worlds-fair-by-e-l-doctorow/
I opened my work email, and I was shook by the schedule that awaits me combining the shepherding a student nurse and training a new grad in the same shift all summer. This nets me a lot of money, and I have to come early (never call out) to remain poised with two shadows all day.
I had to drop off the Mercedes for an inspection, and I met my mother after work. We ate at First Watch, a brunch chain, and the kale tonic and market veg omelette was decent. The eggs were overcooked while the chevre in blended well with the lemon juice-forward beverage.
https://firstwatch.com/menu/morning-market-veg-omelet
I went to the main public library filled with vagrants, and I overheard an early toddler sing-a-long to a contemporary sad sack chant to the tune of Jingle Bells. The parents and children were insufferable. It made me think of this:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WdEPgB2yizw
I listened to Neu! 4 rereleased in 2010.
Harry Nilsson. Off to the Vintage Vault; so I dropped off my books (always more than I will read):
Hiro Arikawa trans Philip Gabriel's The Traveling Cat Chronicles (2015)
Susannah Carson and Harold Bloom (eds). Living with Shakespeare: Essays by Writers, Actors, and Directors (2013)
Graham Greene's The Tenth Man (1985)
Dr. Fun Guy's Passport to Kingdom Fungi (2025)
Haruki Murakami trans Philip Gabriel's Kafka on Shore (2005)
Andrew Grant Jackson's 1973: Rock at the Crossroads (2019)
Peter Barnet and Nancy Wu (eds) The Cloisters: Medieval Art and Architecture (2005) - for my formal analysis paper this summer on the Unicorn Tapestries and for the upcoming Card.
The Onion Book of Knowledge (2012)
I went to The Vintage Vault to peruse the LPs. On the way there, I almost had to mace a vagrant screaming at me and chasing me, and then I stopped at a curb with a desiccated fledging that fell out of a flower arrangement overhead, possibly after yesterday's thunderstorm.
There (lots of John Cale LPs) I found bargain basement prices and one splurge for its rareity:
CDS:
Suzanne Vega's Nine Objects of Desire (1996)
Mark Knopfler's Sailing to Philadelphia (2000)
PJ Harvey's To Bring You My Love (1995)
Bjork's Dull Flame of Desire Multiformat collection box double vinyl/CD
Carly Simon's Hotcakes (1974) *I haven't got time for the pain
David Bowie's Station to Station (1976)
Joni Mitchell's For the Roses (1972) - I already have it, but it was $1.00.
Hassidic & Shabat Songs with Effi Netzer Singers and Solist Guests (1970s) - I bought it for the gatefold English/Hebrew lyrics; Ami Shavit is an electronic musician. My question is also, is it not allowed to listen to records on Shabbat?
Pat Benatar's In the Heat of the Night (1979) - I bought it on account of the Chrysalis imprint
Lee Greenwood's Inside Out (1982) - I do not usually listen to the genre, but I wanted to see what the album would be like at the non-risk of $1.00. Apparently, the artist performed at the 250th anniversary of the Army in D.C. a week ago.
Jackson Browne's Late for the Sky (1976) - I do not own this on LP. I do now.
Harry Nilsson's album of covers - A Little Touch of Schmilsson in the Night (1973)
I went to the produce market for Cherokee Purple Tomatoes, three pounds.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SzO1NX-Bc0I
https://slowfoodusa.org/cherokee-purple-tomato/
I would like to grow/taste this:
https://www.gardeningknowhow.com/tbt/thorburns-terracotta-tomato
The Hebrew album was printed in Haifa. On further examination, the "solist" [sic] on the cover was a poor translation.
I know as well as you that this accumulation is not what my soul needs. I am not going to say that I did not need a break and unstructured time off, but I did not do what I set out to accomplish.
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