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"[...]a vessel cleaving the dungeon of the waves[...]"
You're Love in the Time of Cholera!
by Gabriel Garcia Marquez
Like Odysseus in a work of Homer, you demonstrate undying loyalty by
sleeping with as many people as you possibly can. But in your heart you never give
consent! This creates a strange quandary of what love really means to you. On the
one hand, you've loved the same person your whole life, but on the other, your actions
barely speak to this fact. Whatever you do, stick to bottled water. The other stuff
could get you killed.
Take the Book Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.
Never miss a word
You're Infinite Jest!
by David Foster Wallace
While you1 consider yourself2 to be clever,
there are those3 who think you're just full of yourself or, perhaps worse,
playing a joke4 on everyone around you, and yet you are pretty sure that
you really are that brilliant after all, since people would hardly take the time to
get to know you5 if they didn't care very deeply about what you had to
say to them, to wit, about their lives, their hopes, their dreams, their fears, their
drug habits, and of course what videos6 they prefer to watch, since,
after all, your impressive vocabulary and tendency to go on and on7 makes
you seem superior, able to educate them, and really drive a sense of something
ineffable into their measly little skulls while you are not above making a cheap
gag or really going after anyone or anything or telling them about incredible
futures involving tennis, geopolitics, and
1Meaning you personally, not someone like you or your own
personal daddy, for example.
2As well as you can see yourself, which, frankly, may not be that well.
3Though we wouldn't deign to be so peripatetic as to name them here, mind.
4Jokes, though not common in Victorian England, were known to originate
sometime in ancient history, perhaps as early as the time of Babylon, or even before.
It is thought that the history of the joke plays an integral role in the mindset of
the characters depicted here, though you may disagree at this point, in which case I
am facing quite the dilemma in relaying this narrative, no?
5It is rather time consuming, after all.
6Ha!
7and on and on and on...
Take the Book Quiz II
at the Blue Pyramid.
You're The Metamorphosis!
by Franz Kafka
Though you think you're in the midst of a dream, the fact of the
matter is that your life has become a nightmare. The nightmare at first seems
horrific to you, but you are slowly able to adjust to the facts of the matter
and settle down and make do with what you've been given. There are those that
would say you're pointless and absurd, but you're really just trying to
demonstrate that people can (and do) adapt to anything, no matter how absurd
it is. Not that this will really inspire them to change, because they probably
don't understand.
Take the Book Quiz II
at the Blue Pyramid.
About Me
- Σφιγξ
- possesses wholly unmerited academic pretensions; examines love as an entomologist; collects haunted dollshouses; notes the lunar phase as regularly as the temperature; peruses field guides; reads like a serial magazine subscriptionist; functions through coffee and "mood" music; draws to the very corners of the page; takes notes on unlined paper; reads poetry as prayer; observes textual authority with the incredulity of fiction; suppresses the smart-ass answer(s); adapts as well as anyone beseiged by her own bibelots; she is a sensation seeker in spite of all of this.
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A Hairline Fracture
BY AMY CLAMPITT
Whatever went wrong, that week, was more than weather:
a shoddy streak in the fabric of the air of London
that disintegrated into pollen
and came charging down by the bushelful,
an abrasive the color of gold dust, eroding
the tearducts and littering the sidewalks
in the neighborhood of Sloane Square,
where the Underground’s upper reaches have the character,
almost, of a Roman ruin—from one
crannied arcade a dustmop of yellow blossom
hung with the stubborn insolence of the unintended,
shaking still other mischief from its hair
onto the platform, the pneumatic haste of missed
trains, the closing barrier—
wherever we went, between fits of sneezing we quarreled:
under the pallid entablatures of Belgravia,
the busy brown façades that were all angles
going in and out like a bellows, even the small house
on Ebury Street where Mozart, at the age of eight,
wrote his first symphony, our difference
was not to be composed.
Unmollified by the freckled plush of mushrooming
monkeyflowers in the windowboxes of Chelsea, undone
by the miraculous rift in the look of things
when you’ve just arrived—the remote up close,
the knowing that in another, unentered existence
everything shimmering at the surface is this minute
merely, unremarkably familiar—
it was as though we watched the hairline fracture
of the quotidian widen to a geomorphic fissure,
its canyon edge bridged by the rainbows of a terror
that nothing would ever again be right
between us, that wherever we went, nowhere
in the universe would the bone again be knit
or the rift be closed
On this day, July 27, 2014:
(Correlation: Alfonso Caso - Nicholson's veintena alignment)
The significance of this day
Day Calli (House) is governed by Tepeyollotl, Heart of the Mountain, as its provider of tonalli (Shadow Soul) life energy. Calli is a good day for rest, tranquility and family life. Not a good day for participating in public life. Best spent cementing relationships of trust and mutual interests.
The thirteen day period (trecena) that starts with day 1-Ehecatl (Wind), which is ruled by Chantico. The 13 days of this trecena are governed by the elemental intent of the divine Whirlwind: to create chaos out of order. Order and reason outlive their purpose and must be replaced by the potential for new, unexpected, unpredictable, change. It is precisely in the heart of order that the lightning bolt strikes. These are 13 days of instability and insecurity. The warrior prefers to have no relationships if the only alternative is to have bad relationships: thievery abounds and no treasure of the heart is safe. These are good days to be in the vanguard; bad days to be encamped behind the front.
http://books.google.com/books?id=hqkzbpc72jAC&pg=PA102&dq=Amy+Clampitt+%22Night+after+night+of+muffled+rant%22&hl=en&sa=X&ei=W8jVU6GKE4-8oQTL9ILQCA&ved=0CCQQ6AEwAQ#v=onepage&q=Amy%20Clampitt%20%22Night%20after%20night%20of%20muffled%20rant%22&f=false
Exercise 37.
There is relief after two and half years, and finding that nothing I do has any effect on the outcome. It is cruel and condescending for you to consider this as inevitable, or if it is, I have years ahead to become that person.
https://drive.google.com/file/d/0B3DfyJRIT4jyekdhZmRabTlJSHc/view?usp=sharing
(Correlation: Alfonso Caso - Nicholson's veintena alignment)
The significance of this day
Day Ozomahtli (Monkey) is governed by Xochipili, the Flower Prince, as its provider of tonalli (Shadow Soul) life energy. Ozomahtli is a day for creating, for play, for celebrating. A good day for lightheartedness, a bad day for seriousness. Ozomahtli is a warning about how easily the noble person can be trapped by the lures of public life.
The thirteen day period (trecena)
that starts with day 1-Calli (House) is ruled by Itzpapalotl. The 13 days of this trecena are governed by the conflict between culture and nature: the native desire of human beings to maintain a lineage of customs and beliefs is periodically disrupted by the evolutionary leaps of nature. In this sense, nature is represented as the house into which we are born and culture as the house into which we move. These are 13 days of struggling to decide which house is really home. With every step forward, the warrior still stands at the center of the crossroads: the heart must be trained if it is to be a reliable compass. These are good days to focus on the future; bad days to focus on the past.
The Tower.
http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/earth/environment/archaeology/10411832/Exceptionally-rare-Roman-statue-unearthed-in-City-of-London-building-site.html?placement=rhs1
(Correlation: Alfonso Caso - Nicholson's veintena alignment [adjust] )
The significance of this day
Day Itzcuintli (Dog) is governed by Mictlantecuhtli, God of Death, as its provider of tonalli (Shadow Soul) life energy. Itzcuintli is the guide for the dead, the spirit world's link with the living. Itzcuintli is a good day for funerals and wakes and remembering the dead. It is a good day for being trustworthy, a bad day for trusting others of questionable intent.
The thirteen day period (trecena)
that starts with day 1-Mazatl (Deer) is ruled by Tepeyollotl, the Heart of the Mountain, the Jaguar of Night, lord of the animals and darkened caves. Tepeyollotl is Tezcatlipoca disguised in a jaguar hide, whose voice is the echo in the wilderness and whose word is the darkness itself, calls to the heart in the voice of the conch. These are 13 days associated with the hunt: whether one is the hunter or the game, this trecena reminds us that our lives are determined by the act of stalking. The arts of tracking and back-tracking, of spotting and camouflaging, of following tracks and covering tracks, rule our lives to the degree that we master them. These are good days to study the routines of others; bad days to keep to your routines.
A new-to-me documentary released at the same time as Copie Conforme (2010).
*35:30 leaving the cat in charge.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YIkpHBvu_bE
https://www.dwell.com/collection/an-architects-guide-to-silver-lake-89de2d03
https://www.pathologyoutlines.com/topic/eyeeyelidanatomy.html
A girl that works with me was shot in front of her house.
https://www.google.com/amp/s/amp.wsls.com/news/virginia/roanoke/roanoke-police-investigating-homicide-in-southeast-roanoke
https://www.roanoke.com/news/crime/carilion-nursing-aide-identified-as-victim-of-latest-roanoke-homicide/article_ed88ed09-1382-5efa-a658-506d1d5ba76f.html
We would say, "yes, this going to be a good day because we were working together." She was waiting to be employed a year to be advanced tuition reimbursement.
https://aacnjournals.org/aacnacconline/article-abstract/30/4/305/30600/Monitoring-Unfractionated-Heparin-A-Review-of?redirectedFrom=fulltext?sc_camp=75C68848F64D4E57A65C3112A7C1D3C5
The animals (so many) are in this house, and I escape to the new house (and its resident poltergeist) for minimalistic calm. I like having two situations, for now.
Yes, I was completing BLS this afternoon. My simulation partner is 63, and her father was a pathologist at the hospital, where I was born, Carilion Community Hospital. I sat in the same place where I completed the initial training.
Let it be said that I must empty this house of the accumulation from 1985.
https://books.google.com/books?id=Qsg0AwAAQBAJ&printsec=frontcover&dq=a+field+guide+to+your+own+backyard&hl=en&newbks=1&newbks_redir=0&source=gb_mobile_search&sa=X&ved=2ahUKEwjxh_Llt8n3AhWPmGoFHYyDCFYQ6AF6BAgDEAM#v=onepage&q=a%20field%20guide%20to%20your%20own%20backyard&f=false
Other goals this summer: to empty the storage unit (185/mo.) and to trim or to have the landscaping trimmed, here.
https://neurosciencenews.com/error-brain-network-20529/
I dread thinking about resuscitation because I have been conditioned to believe that a Code is failure to respond to deterioration and provide the appropriate care. I have been at the bedside of someone about to Code many times.
https://www.newscientist.com/article/mg25433861-200-fascia-the-long-overlooked-tissue-that-shapes-your-health/
https://www.grepmed.com/images/4460/eosinophilia-diagnosis-causes-mnemonic-naacp
A differential dx:
https://www.degruyter.com/document/doi/10.1515/jom-2020-0284/html#j_jom-2020-0284_ref_009_w2aab3b7c30b1b6b1ab2b2b9Aa
https://www.scribd.com/document/501632153/MKSAP-18-Infectious-Disease
https://www.newyorker.com/magazine/2023/08/28/is-beekeeping-wrong
I waited at the contracted lab for my annual phlebotomy for nearly an hour, and read the issue nearly cover to cover with one decrepit customer referred from the heart failure clinic telling her son over the phone (loudly) that she needed an LVAD or a heart transplant. The one to the right had a deficit, and kept asking about her turn despite the televised queue.
https://www.newyorker.com/magazine/2023/11/27/joyce-carol-oates-profile
I fault JCO for this; in her haste to depart from her lowbrow background, she has left her sister languishing in a state institution. She has enough money to set her up with caregivers on her estate? Or find a better place. She is guilty of the neglect of her own that she so often accuses of others in her fiction. Wrong.
Without intending to do it, her family neglected her autistic sister in order to launch Joyce? That should be a story, 84-year-old cat lady and novelist; survivor of two husbands, takes Lynn Ann out of the institution. Chaos ensues.
I should read this.
https://www.newyorker.com/magazine/2023/11/27/my-name-is-barbra-streisand-memoir-review
The storage unit money sink is a work in progress.
y kitten, Stella, who came into my life two weeks after Andy and Tony departed, came by the way of an adoption event at work with an office of eleven kittens running around and free to a good home. Half the PACU, an anesthetist, and I cleaned house, but the boy I thought I was getting is a girl in a house of men. She likes to lay on my neck when I am reading like a scarf.
I bought amaryllis today. Many of them.
As is the case with Exercise 37, the Emet and associated typography remains.
The ladder that is the unbroken stairs.
https://www.google.com/books/edition/Teaching_Torah/Z9JikLF_jt4C?hl=en&gbpv=1&dq=samech-lamed-mem&pg=PA49&printsec=frontcover
https://www.wsls.com/news/local/2023/12/08/watch-raw-interview-with-natural-bridge-zoo-owners-daughter-gretchen-mogensen/
I cannot go through a period known as the re-education, and not know what it means. When I have understood the higher meaning of Exercise 92, then I can do it. Otherwise, it is for egotistical reasons.
I will put it here.
https://books.google.com/books?id=pbuPJeQyeskC&pg=PA38&dq=Vidui+vav&hl=en&newbks=1&newbks_redir=0&source=gb_mobile_search&sa=X&ved=2ahUKEwjz7Mf7wcuEAxUxhYkEHS61BrY4ChDoAXoECAcQAw#v=onepage&q=Vidui%20vav&f=false
It occurred to me that there is nothing concrete for us to realize. The receptacle of your genes and all your hopes and dreams is already pictured. The upside of not having children is clear refusal to compete in generations of this shitty game.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JA8WCYIt17M
https://youtu.be/iifU7rF0hVc?si=KMK7Z6auzS-npse-&t=1776
https://youtu.be/YkB1pm0UDn4?si=Vgp_Z6qtJ7YLjIhQ
I found today:
https://books.google.com/books?id=NdQ6IJ7-mLgC&pg=PT7&source=kp_read_button&hl=en&newbks=1&newbks_redir=0&gboemv=1#v=onepage&q&f=false
"First, is that we are very far from knowing what is truly good for us. Therefore, we should not be too stubborn with any specific matter. We know how frequently we had asked for something and, in the course of time, it became clear just how good it was that we did not get what we had asked for. One approach to this is always to ask for things in a general way. In other words, that all should be in accordance with G-d’s will, and that Hashem should send us only what He Himself knows is best for us.
Second, is that we should be very careful that our requests be made with the proper respect to Hashem… Along with the incredible closeness which we need to feel, we can never, for even one moment, forget our obligation of fear and trembling towards His overwhelming greatness. Even if some in the previous generations did make some demands on Hashem, it is impossible for us to learn from them since we are so small, and so filled with transgressions."
https://jewishclarity.com/difficulties-bereavement-and-comfort-2/bitachon-tefillah-part2-2/
https://www.newyorker.com/magazine/2024/04/22/late-love-fiction-joyce-carol-oates
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